One of the reasons I love faery magics and alchemy is it believes the end result is already present and your job is simply to figure out how to access it. Turing lead into gold is simple transmuting the lead to uncover the gold, somehow if you can access the right aspect of leads properties and shift it sideways you will end up with gold.
fire-water-elements found in nature all help the transmutation
The same principle applies to you. You are the gold hiddened within the heavy dark lead bits of everyday life, past experience and frustrations.
Add a bit of fire, maybe a long soak in the tub, some essential oils, herbs and bubbles to help transmute your heavy lead bits into sparkling shining gold.